Over the past two years I’ve gone through a lot of inner self-discovery and outer transformation. I’ve grown, I’ve changed, I’ve learned and I’ve continually opened myself up to more adventures, love and empowerment. I’ve become a vegetarian, completed a triathlon, let go of fears, and emotions holding me back and a whole slew of awesome stuff that has helped me become the person I am today.
But that person is always changing. I am always changing.
Just this week I have felt myself going through a momentous change within my very being and rather than being afraid of the change as I might have been in the past, I’ve opened myself up to the brilliant light that is growing inside of me and makes me feel excited and powerful and happy and joyful.
What I’ve learnt most recently is that change can build up inside of you, willing you to take action to seek support to look deep inside of yourself for questions and answers. For example, last Thursday when I went in for my haircut I told her to chop it all off. To go crazy and have fun with my hair. It was such a freeing experience and I absolutely love my new look.
Then last weekend I started searching for mentors and leaders and spiritual advisers to help me find my way. I didn’t even realize what I was doing but very quickly I connected with Kendall – On an Inhale, Goddess Leonie, Tara – The Organic Sister and Mara – Medicinal Marzipan - all amazing-inspiring-beautiful souls that, even in a super short amount of time, have helped me discover little bright pieces of myself. So without a specific plan in mind, I’ve already begun gravitating towards those radiant beings that inspire and enlighten me every moment.
If I sound a little dreamy it’s because I am. I’ve been feeling this… intense joy for the last 2 weeks building inside of me and it’s such a cool feeling, and the best (and worst) part is that I have no idea what will come of this.
Honestly, I feel like my true authentic beautiful self is coming more and more to the surface. Just by listening to my organic wisdom, trusting the universe, believing in my own beauty and capabilities and reading and learning all that I can I feel like I’ve discovered this wonderful part of myself that has just been waiting deep in my soul.
I feel more like me. I know that sounds crazy but it’s the only way to describe this feeling. This emotion. This excitement.
To encourage this new-found joy and journey of self-discovery to continue I’ve decided to plan a Mini Retreat for the weekend.
Erin’s Mini Retreat
So on Sunday I plan on laying out a big rug on the carpet (I was planning on going out for a picnic BUT it’s supposed to rain all day) and gathering some favorite music, enjoying some yummy snacks and dreaming about all of my goals and wishes and dreams.
See, when I was on my discovery call with Mara she gave me this great idea of writing down every single thing that I want to do in my life to clear my head. Just get out all of the dreams and ideas that are inside of me. Essentially clearing some space. Then I should create a map and break it down into time chunks - next month, three months, six months, nine months, etc. And rather than feeling like I need to do it all right NOW realize that I need to dedicate time and energy into my projects to be successful and worthwhile and the only way to do that is by giving them the time they deserve.
That’s my mini retreat plan:
to give myself space and time to dream and plan.
Sounds good right?
If you feel like you would love to chat with someone about your own inner feelings, fears and desires I highly suggest reaching out to Mara . I’ll have a video blog up about our call next week but in the meantime, I just want to say that I think she is a beautiful and inspiring person that is more than able to help all of us grow and find our own organic joy.