As of Friday morning, July 12 at 10 AM, there are exactly 171 days, 15 hours and so many minutes until the first day of January 2013. Crazy huh?
In January of 2011 and I commited myself to being open… to new ideas, letting myself go, to changing, to trying something new, to learning, to being honest and to being healthier. In 2011 I was determined to push past fear to be open. I was tired of letting fear control my life and hold me back from embracing my authentic self and truly enjoying life to the fullest. So I made 2011 all about growth; as I took away the barriers between myself and self improvement I found that I had so much more room to grow, and dance, and dream and believe.
Yes, fear is still here. Lurking in the dark shadowy corners of my mind but rather than letting it wrap itself around me and cloud my vision and stop my feet. I simply acknowledge it’s presence and then turn my attention inwards and find stillness and safety rather than worry and fear. No longer do I allow myself to fall victim to the vicious cycle of “Do I or don’t I?” “What if?” “But” and rather I dig deep into my soul and find courage and curiosity.
So what if I fall on my face (done that twice this year!)?
So what if I embarass myself or look weird?
So what if I “fail” or make mistakes along the way?
These fears of being imperfect, less than, unworthy, unvaluable, embarrased and different NO longer rule my life.
Since I choose happiness and excitement over fear and hesitation I’ve skipped down new-exciting so-freaking-awesome life-changing paths that have given me the opportunity to realize my true potential, find an inspiring source of grace within me and learn to live with an open heart.
Now this year, this year is the year I FLOURISH.
Over the last 6 months a lot has happened – I’ve signed up to be an egg donor, I’ve struggled through heartbreaking grief, I’ve run my first 5 mile road race, created a powerful meditation practice, finished the first draft of my novel, tried Reiki, went rock climbing, and I’ve commited myself to trying something new every month even if it’s a little scary! Most of all, over the last 6 months I’ve become more connected with my intentions as I’ve truly connected to my authentic self. It might not be as noticable to my friends and family but I feel lighter, happier, more joyful, less stressed, less worried, less fearful, like my vision has cleared and I’ve grown.
Simply – I’ve changed. Over the last 6 months I can feel deep in my soul that I’ve changed.
So what do I hope to accomplish, to experience, to learn in the next 6 months?
Self-publish my first book
Go to my second health conference
Receive my Reiki I and II certification
Publish at least 2 E-books
Finish the Tufts 10K stronger than when I started
Be an egg donor and change someone’s life
Continue to try new things (like belly dancing, chanting, horseback riding and tai chi)
For the next 6 months and the many months after I will continue to believe, dream and embrace all of life – because truly life has never been sweeter.
How do you plan on spending your next 6 months?