I know it’s a long title but that’s exactly what I’m doing.
See, practically two years ago (on September 1, 2010) I wrote an article called :: Step 1: Assessment. And it started like this:
“Before I can go any farther with my plans for reinvention and transformation it’s time to figure out exactly what I hope to change and what I want and need to accomplish by my 26th birthday (less than 6 months away!).” – Me on 9/1/10
Kinda funny, huh? It’s actually quite cathartic to re-read my old posts (for all you bloggers or journal writers out there, I suggest you take a moment today to go back several months or a couple of years and re-read what you wrote – it’s pretty inspiring to see how far we’ve changed without even realizing it).
Anyways, back to September 2010… When I wrote that post I was feeling completely and utterly lost at sea. I didn’t really know who I was, who I wanted to be or how to get there. I told myself: “So, if you’re like me, and you want to change yourself, improve, re-construct, start by writing about who you are now and what you want to change later.” And honestly that helped a lot. It was empowering to write down exactly what I wanted to do with my life and how I was going to fulfill my dreams.
But I’m not that lost, confused and frustrated young woman today. Over the last two years I’ve grown considerably. I’ve become stronger, faster, healthier, empowered, more mindful, more accepting, more aware, open to challenges, excited to try new things… I’ve met new people, made new connections, and through all of this I’ve found my true authentic self and rejoiced.
So, I’m trying something different this time around :: I’m stepping forward, actually leaping forward, even though I’m not sure which direction to go.
Yes, I want change. Yes, I want a new job. Yes, I am ready for both. BUT rather then forcing myself down one path I’m letting the winds and waves of change lead me where they may. Rather than choosing a specific path (wellness or writing) which I’ve been torn between since they’re both my passions – I’m going after both and I’ll see where I end up. I’ve decided to be ambitious but to let go of a specific vision of the future. I’m still forging my own path – I’m not just waiting around for life to drop an amazing opportunity in my lap – but I’m moving forward with my eyes open, my arms ready to welcome newness. Ready. Hopeful. Excited.
That means :: I’m not writing down exactly where I hope to be in 6 months. Rather…
I’m leaning into trust instead of fear
I’m letting go of control and embracing the journey
I’m opening my heart to the possibilities and opportunities that life has to offer
And I have to admit, I’m quite excited to see where this unknown path leads me.